Today was my visitation day with my fiancé. I had to work two jobs this morning before I went to visitation. So, I was tired when I got there to see him and he wasn’t happy about it. Well, I can’t help I get tired, I’m busting my ass working three part-time jobs and trying to start our business as well. I made a Facebook account for the business and added a bunch of groups. That way I can advertise, but I have been waiting on doing that because of my anxiety. I keep thinking what ifs all damn day. So, I have been looking for journaling prompts for anxiety, and I found this website. 31 Free Journal Prompts for Anxiety PDF (Free) » JournalBuddies.com. I’m sharing so maybe it will help someone else too. My what ifs are; what if the business fails, what if the business grows too fast before he gets out, or what if I get in trouble for not being licensed or insured. The last one I believe as long as I post it on my site, and any other sites I post on that I’m not licensed or insured yet, then I can’t get in trouble. I’m going to look that up. But that’s only part of my anxiety, I worry about if I’m going to have enough to pay the bills, Shawn’s canteen, money on the phone, and rent. I worry I’m not going to make enough, but in reality, I’m only paying half the bills right now. I worry I won’t make the deadline on my classes and assignments, but then again, I’m on my classroom every other night. I’m worried about getting the house cleaned, but I don’t have much time because I have been working so much and I’m trying to get used to all this work. I’m going to make a schedule for myself, so I can’t get the house cleaned a little bit at a time. I worry that I’m not going to be able to get my life under control before he gets out of jail, and he will leave. I worry that he doesn’t really love me, but then I have to remind myself he changed his entire life for me. He turned his life completely around. Just because he loved me. I know anxiety really sucks and it’s hard to deal with, but with every negative thought you have, replace it with a positive thought that you want to believe, and after awhile you will start believing it and your anxiety will slowly go away. When you have an anxiety attack try this:

Say 5 things you see

Say 4 things you hear

Say 3 things you can touch

Say 2 things you can smell

Say 1 thing you can taste

Then, breath and tell me how you felt after you did that during an attack. It forces your mind to think and causes the fight or flight response to stop and it will calm you down. I hope that made since. I posted a few posts today so I’m going to sign off now. Have good night, guys! If you know any ways of helping anxiety the feel free to respond and send me some pointers….